can't take it to the grave
No. You can not.
My small little life means nearly nothing to me. At only 47 years old,
most of my excessive selfish interests have long since been satisfied. And now they have been abandoned in favor trying to pursue a life of living efficient, small, clean, and beautiful. And also trying to providing a trouble free seamless transition to my only 2 loved ones. They have no real love or use for my Buick. Nor do they need the burden of dealing with the ugly diseases of hoarding, disorganization, filth, and financial obligation when I am gone. What they need is trouble free money. And selling my belongings for peanuts and buying a few dumpsters and Central American day-laborers to load them is not the way to get it.
Nor do they need to see me as a person who portrays this behavior. For their sake, I would like to uphold a certain image in our social circle, and I believe this is unacceptable and may result in considerable embarrassment for them. Every minute I feel a new pain that prevents me from going to work, all I think about is what I can do to make it easier for them. Family health history and my cultural upbringing pretty much almost guarantees I won't live to retirement. If I get just one whiff of uncertainty, I will sell and close on what very little unfinished business I may have (including the Twin Turbo technological nightmare) while I can still handle the things that only I know intimately. I consider it selfish, irresponsible and absolutely punishable by burning in hell, to leave this shit for them to deal with.
I have asked. If there is anything you wan't, let me know and I'll do what I can to keep it for you. Answer was no. "Don't do to us what your father is going to do to you and your siblings."
My Father will destroy the relationships of me and my siblings when he is gone and will leave us with immeasurable complexities we don't have the physical health or strength or time for. It will take years to sort out. Fortunately I don't need any of his life's accomplishments. But I also don't need these financial obligations either. His entire life's work will be wasted in the moment of his last breath.
Other than this and a few other small gripes, I'm generally a happy person
. Because time and waste are always on my mind I try my best to make every minute great.