Well, where to start..... Its been over a year since I was last here. A year filled with yet more hell and problems than even the three leading up to it. On the up note, I have essentially stopped drinking to the extremely excessive levels I had problems with before, and although still unemployed and looking for permanent housing arrangements, I am better off than the places I was at before. I am attempting to create an end to all that has happened since '98, and a part of that closure will come through here.
There are now 4 times the registered users than when I left, and as such I assume that 3/4 of you do not know even the public side of the story of what transpired here before I left. That is just as well, as my attitude with that and many other things is it is part of a sealed past I wish to leave behind. What I ask is that if I do decide to return, which I may do after some time and effecting what I explain below, that I go forward from now on somewhat of a level field. I do not remember everything that may or may not have happened. In fact I do not remember alot of things at this time, and yet I also remember other things I forced myself to forget about long ago. This is my goal:
If anyone has any issues in the past that they feel somehow unresolved with me, please email or private message me now. Not 3 weeks or 3 months from now, but now. I would like to attempt to right any wrongs or perceived wrongs that may have happened. I do however ask that this only be via e-mail or private message, as to not bring the board back into things. I will try to the best of my ability to go through things with you as quickly as I can, but I do now know what is awaiting out there nor do I know how long it will all take to resolve.
I now have a past that what I do remember of I am trying my best to reach closure with and move forward to build a better life out of the ruins such as they are. I want it to be disposed of as much as it ever can be (I know it wont disappear but it can become inactive), so it doesnt interfere with what I try to do from here forward.
I think that is the best I can state as of right now, as some of these things coupled with still recent events have left me still somewhat off-balance, but i would only ask for a chance to make anything right with parties who feel wronged as best I can. If you do know know of this past, I ask you do not dredge it up as I am trying to rebuild anew and independant of what may have happened before, and I ask that you only judge from this day forward.
That is as best as I feel I can go into things right now, and to my friends from the past here on the board I hope to re-kindle past friendships as the new person I will be trying to become. To enemies from the past, I hope to find ways to bury the hatchet so to speak, and I hope at the very least you will attempt to allow a reasonable compromise to make that become reality. The first step will be for you to please get in touch with me.
I also ask another very big favor from Bruce and the other moderators of the forum: please help me keep the resolution side of things off board if you could, if it comes down to it? I want to see anything left from the past disposed from, and I do not think dealing with it publically would be the best way.
I am hoping i might be able to at least clear anything remaing up, and after this is done I may consider ending my self-imposed absence from the board, to return in a lesser capacity once again. Thank you.
Ken Czermak
Former Moderator
There are now 4 times the registered users than when I left, and as such I assume that 3/4 of you do not know even the public side of the story of what transpired here before I left. That is just as well, as my attitude with that and many other things is it is part of a sealed past I wish to leave behind. What I ask is that if I do decide to return, which I may do after some time and effecting what I explain below, that I go forward from now on somewhat of a level field. I do not remember everything that may or may not have happened. In fact I do not remember alot of things at this time, and yet I also remember other things I forced myself to forget about long ago. This is my goal:
If anyone has any issues in the past that they feel somehow unresolved with me, please email or private message me now. Not 3 weeks or 3 months from now, but now. I would like to attempt to right any wrongs or perceived wrongs that may have happened. I do however ask that this only be via e-mail or private message, as to not bring the board back into things. I will try to the best of my ability to go through things with you as quickly as I can, but I do now know what is awaiting out there nor do I know how long it will all take to resolve.
I now have a past that what I do remember of I am trying my best to reach closure with and move forward to build a better life out of the ruins such as they are. I want it to be disposed of as much as it ever can be (I know it wont disappear but it can become inactive), so it doesnt interfere with what I try to do from here forward.
I think that is the best I can state as of right now, as some of these things coupled with still recent events have left me still somewhat off-balance, but i would only ask for a chance to make anything right with parties who feel wronged as best I can. If you do know know of this past, I ask you do not dredge it up as I am trying to rebuild anew and independant of what may have happened before, and I ask that you only judge from this day forward.
That is as best as I feel I can go into things right now, and to my friends from the past here on the board I hope to re-kindle past friendships as the new person I will be trying to become. To enemies from the past, I hope to find ways to bury the hatchet so to speak, and I hope at the very least you will attempt to allow a reasonable compromise to make that become reality. The first step will be for you to please get in touch with me.
I also ask another very big favor from Bruce and the other moderators of the forum: please help me keep the resolution side of things off board if you could, if it comes down to it? I want to see anything left from the past disposed from, and I do not think dealing with it publically would be the best way.
I am hoping i might be able to at least clear anything remaing up, and after this is done I may consider ending my self-imposed absence from the board, to return in a lesser capacity once again. Thank you.
Ken Czermak
Former Moderator
