I took bruce's advice...and waiting until i wasn't mad at it, and was actually excited about it again.....so.....
A one year later update......finally started to actually put it back together today. Past few weeks collected all my parts from dissassembly that i had stored everywhere and got the car and parts now in the same spot. Spent lots of time sorting stuff and seeing what i had. Spent almost as much time looking at stuff going wtf is that for? Did the fiberglass bumper filler install and check fitment with bumpers. And finally replaced my fuel pump too.
I actually had fun working on it, so i'm glad that feeling came back. Glad i was able to store it far away where i didn't have to see it, or think about it.
Think im gonna find a space heater for the garage too, working in january is gonna suck without it.